Sex

Sex  is oh so good. I miss it to be honest, but I have had to do some soul-searching on why I miss sex. I  have always used sex as a way to get a man not  for a way to connect to a husband. God intended for the intimacy to be the glue that connects a couple. I always felt like if the mechanics of sex were there the intimacy was there also. How sad is it that I have never had the intimacy that God desires? I have never felt good enough to not give my body away. I have always used sex to keep a man. Sex is great but even great sex becomes boring after a while.

Boring sex and a shallow relationship are hard, and then the thought comes I have the wrong man.

Maybe the next man will be better.

What if the bible is right?

What if sex is supposed to just be for marriage?

For someone who has been married and now single, those questions remain.

“1 Corinthians 6 : 12-20 12 “I have the right to do anything,” you say—but not everything is beneficial. “I have the right to do anything”—but I will not be mastered by anything. 13 You say, “Food for the stomach and the stomach for food, and God will destroy them both.” The body, however, is not meant for sexual immorality but for the Lord, and the Lord for the body. 14 By his power God raised the Lord from the dead, and he will raise us also. 15 Do you not know that your bodies are members of Christ himself? Shall I then take the members of Christ and unite them with a prostitute? Never! 16 Do you not know that he who unites himself with a prostitute is one with her in body? For it is said, “The two will become one flesh.”17 But whoever is united with the Lord is one with him in spirit.

18 Flee from sexual immorality. All other sins a person commits are outside the body, but whoever sins sexually, sins against their own body. 19 Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; 20 you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.”

Ouch, not the answer I was hoping for.

God designed us to be a helper. (Genesis 2:18)

We are not meant to go through life alone, God gives us a suitable helpmate.

If I trust God for a gift of a husband, why would I force my will and not allow time for his will to be done?

Sometimes, I don’t think I am enough without the use of sex.  I rush. I know sex makes a couple become one, brings strong emotions, and forms a bond. Sex is a gift from God, but done in the wrong context it is a relationship that is shallow. I want the deep connection of a Godly relationship designed to love, cherish, protect, help each other and know that we allowed God’s timing and not our own.

The next verse really convicted me.

Proverbs:1-23

1 My son, pay attention to my wisdom, listen well to my words of insight,

2 that you may maintain discretion and your lips may preserve knowledge.

3 For the lips of an adulteress drip honey, and her speech is smoother than

oil; 4 but in the end she is bitter as gall, sharp as a double-edged sword.

5 Her feet go down to death; her steps lead straight to the grave.  6

She gives no thought to the way of life; her paths are crooked, but she

knows it not. 7 Now then, my sons, listen to me; do not turn aside from

what I say. 8 Keep to a path far from her, do not go near the door of her

house, 9 lest you give your best strength to others and your years to one

who is cruel, 10 lest strangers feast on your wealth and your toil enrich

another man’s house. 11 At the end of your life you will groan, when your

flesh and body are spent. 12 You will say, “How I hated discipline!

How my heart spurned correction! 13 I would not obey my teachers or listen

to my instructors. 14 I have come to the brink of utter ruin in the midst

of the whole assembly.” 15 Drink water from your own cistern, running

water from your own well. 16 Should your springs overflow in the streets,

your streams of water in the public squares? 17 Let them be yours alone,

never to be shared with strangers. 18 May your fountain be blessed, and

may you rejoice in the wife of your youth. 19 A loving doe, a graceful deer–

may her breasts satisfy you always, may you ever be captivated by her love.

20 Why be captivated, my son, by an adulteress? Why embrace the bosom of

another man’s wife? 21 For a man’s ways are in full view of the LORD, and

he examines all his paths. 22 The evil deeds of a wicked man ensnare him;

the cords of his sin hold him fast. 23 He will die for lack of discipline,

led astray by his own great folly.

I want my sex life to be beautiful and private. I don’t want to lead any man into a sexual relationship outside of God’s will. My thoughts were wrong. If I trust that I am enough in Christ and All gifts are from God. Won’t  my mind, personality, skill set, be enough. I don’t have to use my body. I have the gift of sex within marriage to express my love, not to get a man. Big Difference.

If you need a fresh start, remember God forgives.

1 John 1:9

 “If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.”

My prayer for today: God please keep me from myself, guide me in a Godly relationship with you in the center. I know I will never have a temptation without a way to escape. You are with me and for me. Thank you for opening my eyes to your ways and not my own.