Month: January 2017

Have you ever wondered? Why God has you or had you in the place you were at? Why my life? What is the purpose to all of this?

I have. I know God is sovereign, I know that, but sometimes I just don’t feel that way.  I look at others and think they  have no clue what I have been through. I then have to remind myself I don’t know what their life has been either.

I do know I am to comfort others as God has comforted me. 2 Corinthians 1

I rely on scripture for wisdom not emotions.

I found comfort today from  1 Timothy 4:11-16

The scripture says to love, live in purity, have faith, be an example  in speech, teaching,  publicly reading  the Bible, here is the best part….. practice these things  so others can see  progress.

Get it!

PROGRESS!!

We don’t have to be perfect. This scripture is addressed to ministers, but I love the idea of having grace and practicing.  We should look different in our walk with God as we mature not be perfect.

I don’t have to worry about were God has me or why. I don’t have to rely on my emotions. I can rely on placing scriptures into my heart, putting my faith in Him, and being the best example I know how to be. Pretty simple stuff, Love me some Jesus.

I gave my testimony last night to a small group. I had told my friend what I was doing. Her advice was to talk about my year of  dating. I dated after my spouse died and was a mess. Still am, far from perfect. Thank goodness people crucified the only perfect person who walked on earth.

I did seek God during this time. I would pray and still pray for each person I dated. I would pray before each date for wisdom and discernment. I truly felt led by God on each person until I didn’t get my way. The process in my mind was taking too long. I went out on my own and got burned.

I then went back to God and humbled myself. The ironic thing was I was being impatient,  then  God rushed the process were I wasn’t comfortable with the speed. God’s timing is never my own.

Every experience that I had led me to my husband now. The men God had placed in my life spoke truth over me, things I needed to hear. The one man I dated and was burned by was a minister. The world would have looked to some of the men that I dated and the actions with judgement. I didn’t feel convicted because God was with me. The one that the world would have thought highly of was wrong for me and I was going against God.

Ministers are great and speak truth, but if one isn’t speaking truth use caution. I don’t want to turn people away from the church or a minister. I just want to say the church is made up of imperfect people. It is  everyone’s responsibility to have a personal relationship with Christ. I am truly sorry if the church has hurt you. Please do not walk away because of an experience, there are some very good loving people in the church.

I had loving people who prayed over me, the relationships, and the men I was dating. They listened to endless rants and cries. I was frustrated.

When I laid my life down finally and gave it over to God. He could use me. I was done being  in the way obstructing his plan.

I have not blogged much this year. God had a different mission for me. I will blog when God lays on my heart to do so.

I hope this gives you hope. God has a plan for you. God has a spouse for you if it is in his plan for you to have one. I wish if I could go back I would have been able to see the plan unfolding before me. I now have more trust in God’s ways not mine. He is an awesome, good,  great father who I can rest in.

Prayer for today:

Thank you God for never wasting. I am so thankful for a God that uses everything for our good for those that love you. I don’t deserve your grace or mercy. You are truly amazing. I am humbled to be yours. In Jesus name, Amen