I often wonder if Mary knew:

Knew her savior baby would serve and not reign in a traditional role of a king.

Knew he would be crucified in the end

Knew her life would be esteemed by some mocked by others

I know in my life, when my  prayers expectations on God didn’t line up with God’s answers, I felt rejected.

My child died. I don’t understand Why.

My parents weren’t the greatest. Why?

Relationships have failed. Why?

Why so much pain on earth?

When I think of Mary:

Was she scared to be a virgin and pregnant?

Did she wonder why a manger away from her family?

Did she question Jesus hanging on the cross, her son dying in front of her?

God never promised an easy road in life. He did promise to never leave or forsake us. I need to be reminded sometimes that God’s plan is more than my pride, my plan, and failure to lay my life down for his. This holiday season I am reminded of Mary’s willingness to follow even when it probably didn’t make much sense here on earth.