John 12:24-26

” I tell the truth, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds. The man who loves his life will lose it, while the man who hates his life in this world will keep it for eternal life. Whoever serves me must follow me; and where I am, my servant also will be. My Father will honor the one who serves me.”

Before I became a Christian the thought of dying to myself and living for an invisible God was ridiculous. How would I ever survive or be happy serving others? Truth be told I wasn’t happy with my life, nothing ever seemed to be enough. I was a fraud. I acted most days to cover the insecurity that I felt.

BUT God, is amazing. When I finally realized that if I gave my life over to the one who created me, created my world, the vast universe, and followed, I was no longer a fraud pretending to be whole. I was whole because I now have purpose. I serve. I love. I die to my selfish ways. I am created in the image of a wonderful savior. I am filled to the brim of who I am in Christ by loving and serving others. I find it ironic that the most miserable time in my life was before Christ.  I thought if I followed Christ, I would loose happiness and security.

While my life is no longer my own. I wouldn’t want it any other way. If you are holding onto a selfish pattern. If you are miserable trying to find the next best thing to satisfy. I promise there is something more to life. Life on earth is meant to be lived with eternity in mind. Lay down your life for his. It is a journey worth taking.